How can I do?

After back to school I start to worry about a lot of things...One of my good friend,you start to catch up with my homework.I started a little scared and will lose you...Miserable,and how can I lose to you.I have to study harder....though you are a good friend of mine and also my good classmate,but my heart still will be a bit sour because you have to catch up with me. Yes, I can not be lost to you, I must be more than you and the others...Please forgive me for your apathy, and I do not want, but the heart was inexplicable hate you...I suspect that I have neuropathy..Haiz ..... I hate that feeling. Can anyone tell me how I had?